To feel the force or to feel tired- that is the question

9:53 PM and Star Wars Episode III: Revenge of the Sith premiers on only 2 and a bit hours. Do I want to go?

You see, the question is a little deeper than simply 'do I wish to see this film', since being a closet-case ultra-nerd means that my desire to see the climactic conclusion the the prequel trilogy is a given. The question reaches more into the issues of timing. You see, I have entered the 9-5 grind (though being paid the equivalent of of 9-9:30 grind) and as such, I feel the weight of responsibility bearing down upon me. If I go to this movie tonight, I know that I will enjoy it immensely, however I also know that I will be very tired, run down and lacking in contribution later that day.

It's at these moments, I think, that the realities of adulthood kick in. The Star Wars prequels have carried me through many of my adolescent years: with Phantom Menace I was but a school boy with flexible, easy to escape school commitments the next day; with Attack of the Clones I was an eager uni student, with commitments that were even more flexible, though grounded by the 'self-driven aspect' of tertiary study. Now, with Revenge of the Sith I am in my working life, 9-5, five days a week. I have a boss, a team who relies on me, commitments that cant be put on hold and deadlines that need to be met. The boarders into this world are permeable, and while have not yet attempted to leave I imagine that the borders out of this world are decidely less permeable.

I am here now. and the strict, regimented, invasive time commitments of this world do not suit me yet. I suppose I better keep fighting it while I have the conviction to do so.

See you at the movie....

Ralph